I’m not even going to spend a lot of time talking about how it’s been foreverrrr since I’ve sat down to write something on this blog. Y’all already know that. 😉 #pregnancyproblems
So let’s just chat for a minute.
This one is for my social media ladies. (I mean, lezbehonest…isn’t that like everyone now??) If you’ve ever had a desire to put yourself out there on social media, create a product, advocate for something, start your own business, etc then I want to speak to your heart for a second here.
I’ve always had this desire to create something. Anything. A business, a book, a product, a community. You name it, I’ve probably considered it. I’m definitely not here to say that it’s a bad desire. That’s the creator in me, and we all have a bit of that spirit inside of us. Maybe the amount varies, but since we are made in God’s image, we all are creators like our Heavenly Father. It’s in His nature, and it’s in our nature.
Genesis 1:1-3 – In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.
As I’ve spent more time laying on the couch doing nothing because the first trimester has WORN ME OUT, I’ve had a lot of time to reflect…and also a lot more time to scroll Instagram and get jealous of other women. I would scroll, envy, and instantly start to feel like my time resting on the couch wasn’t good enough. (As if creating a human is lazy!) I would start to feel the need to be “productive” by social media’s standards.
Instead of acting on that feeling (remember, I’m still too tired to do a dang thing LOL), I started thinking about why I’ve always had that super strong pull to create. One word seemed to keep coming up. Freedom. Freedom of time, freedom from debt, freedom from judgement, freedom to work with who I wanted, freedom to blah blah blah. It all sounds well and good, right? Well it’s not.
Finding my freedom in the things of this world will never be enough. It’s a monumental waste of time, because my freedom is already 100% secure in Christ. This world will never be enough. In fact, this world does a really good job of making me feel even more chained. I scroll, envy, lust, covet, get anxious, get depressed, and let the world bind me in expectations and standards that I was never meant to live up to. My tendency to act this way has always been there because of my sin nature, but social media and those little squares we live in have fanned the flame.
Instead of focusing on the freedom to be joyful in all situations due to Christ and His love for me, I found myself desiring the “girlboss” life of “freedom”. I found myself stressing about creating content to increase my followers and page views. Are the things I post here from my heart? Absolutely. Is my motivation as a sinful being always completely pure? No way. I had let myself become motivated by fear. Fear of being chained by the “restrictions” of a normal job if I didn’t create an empire for myself online.
Those chains an restrictions aren’t real, though. I made them up. My chains were broken the moment Jesus died on the cross for me and you and all of us.
So, what’s the point of all of this? If you see yourself in any of what you just read, don’t do it out of fear. Create beautiful things. And, heck, do it on social media if you want. You do you, boo boo. But don’t do it out of fear. Don’t do it because she does it. Don’t do it because you’re afraid of being “left behind” those you see on social media. Create. But create for Him in whatever way He calls you to create.